Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Resolutions Come Early!
I understand that for the most part that resolutions come at the end of the year....... But I'm changing that for me. I've been unhappy with my life for a while now; I guess I shouldn't say unhappy as much as I am unsatisfied. I've become stagnant. I deserve better! My best friend also recently pointed out to me how she has to constantly reach out to me to see how I'm doing. I think about her daily and wonder how life is away from Manhattan, and yet I wait for her to text me. That's just wrong, when did I become this person? She is not the only person I've shut out; there are many friends both near and far that I just don't ask if they want to do something/anything for some reason I've become that person who waits till someone calls me, instead of asking what everyone else is up to.
I've found an amazing man, he recently left to fight for our country (one of the many reasons I find him so attractive, his service to others). Oh man I have to sneeze SO BAD!!! It wasn't until he left that I realized how isolated I've become as a human being. (How he even reached out to me, points out how secluded I've become.) I go to work, class, and then back home and on the couch to mess on my computer/watch TV till I go to bed. Then I start it all over again. It wasn't until B and I started dating that I even left the house after work. I'm done with that!
I'm a stubborn person who doesn't like to lean on other people or have other people worry about her, so I feel like I haven't let people know how stagnant I feel when I'm alone. When I'm with people, or at work I feel like I'm a completely different person, once I turn my key in the door and I'm alone…I've become lazy, someone I'm not with other people and someone I have never been. Instead I should be calling the people who care about me most and check in with them. So I'm making a change, I miss my best friends, I miss friends, I miss my family, and I've done it to myself, I've just "eh, I'll talk to them later" when the truth is I wasn't working on anything else. So I'm making a change!
I've got some resolutions and solutions I got to make, before I drive myself INSANE!!! So not only am I going to make resolutions, I'm adding ways I'm going to accomplish this... and I hope to hold myself accountable through this blog... my journal.
2 months ago I lost over 20lbs, this last month I lost 5lbs (I've been sick so my diet is quite a skew this past month) Resolution 1. Continue making healthy life choices to continue to lose weight.
How to accomplish this: Eat more fruits; this hopefully can help my belly with being sick too!
Walk more; get up to ask a question instead of waiting for my boss to come out to me.
Maintain focus, and keep junk food out of the house! J
Resolution 1.5 I thought of this when I was at the end…. But I feel like it goes with the above so I went back up… Ok I want to cook more dinners.
I'm sick of warming stuff up in the microwave. When I lived in the studio apartment I frequently cooked a nice dinner for myself… Where did my time go?!
Resolution 2. Clean out the 3 Rubbermaid containers I still haven't cleaned out since I moved.
How to accomplish this: I will not sit on the couch ideally at the end of the day… If I truly haven't thought about whatever is in the box… it's getting thrown. Otherwise it'll be put away in its proper place.
Resolution 3. Maintain a weekly Cleaning Schedule.
How to accomplish this: This Friday/Saturday I hope to will do a deep cleaning of my apartment, then write out a daily activities chart to make sure that every day I do little things to keep my apartment cleaner, therefore keeping me saner.
Resolution 4. Buy a lamp and nice rug.
How to accomplish this: Ok come on I'm still an Interior Designer, I have a need to constantly make my space look like a magazine… do I accomplish that? No, But I want to have a nice rug and lamp to make my living room feel not so gross and dirty. And I want it…. So I win! J
Resolution 5. Actually go through my pictures/scrapbook stuff
Resolution 6. Spend more time on crafts.
How to accomplish this: This will entail a trip to hobby lobby, but this too will help me devote time to me, and continue to clean my apartment. I also am a crafty person and feel like its being suppressed through work. I'm in Grad School right now; I would like to devote a little more time to me and to school instead of just work. Isn't that what the rest of my life is for? Why am I working over 40 hours a week, and am unhappy at the end of it?
Resolution 7. Make 4 phone calls a week to family/friends.
How to accomplish this: There is no reason I can't call my grandma/brothers/friends while I'm cleaning out the toilet, putting away dishes, wiping down the counter. I need to just do it. I hate talking on the phone, I never know what to say and feel like I don't' do much but hopefully with all my other things on my to-do list this will change!
Ok so looking at this it may seem like a lot but its all stuff I accomplish before, and for some reason I've become lazy, and depressed. I am no longer letting myself waller in this filth! I'm making a change!
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